:: See You In My Dreams ::

:: Friday, March 28, 2003 ::

Dear Diary,

I love getting new diaries. They're all so clean and fresh and ready to be written upon. They hold the potential to document a whole part of my life, and I think that's just neat. Thank you, Gay Rights activists, for this!

Oh, but what am I doing. I have to go back to the beginning. This all started when Mom signed me up to audition for that new gay reality series, what was it, "Bent" or something. I guess it's nice to have a mom who encourages all of my interests. In any case, I didn't think my audition had gone very well at all. When I told them about Yume during the "occupation and/or hobbies" part, they were practically leering at me. I hate that. I started stuttering and forgot what I was talking about. I had gotten so flustered, I ended up dropping everything I was holding. If it weren't for that - yes, very cute - guy (who was next in line to audition) who helped me, I don't know what I would have done.

So after that mini-disaster, I could say that I had at least tried my hardest, but probably wouldn't get in anyway. To tell the truth, I was looking forward to it; it all sounds so romantic. Living with several other tenants with the same preferences as you, and getting the opportunity to date them? Who could say no to that?

Anyway, I had tried to push this away and focus on work and my art, and had done a pretty good job of it too, until the letter came, right from the president of MBC himself! What a surprise that was! They accepted me, so I get to be on the show!! I'm so excited, I could just burst! I also got this absolutely awesome diary to write in!

To tell the truth, I am a little nervous, too, about all of this. Well, a little is a bit of an understatement. I'm very nervous about this. It'll be kind of scary, being away from home, but I guess I could call if I needed to. However, the letter wasn't really that specific on the house, or the rooms, or the other tenants. Actually, it didn't give any information at all. I don't really know what I'm getting myself into. Oh, why am I doing this? I know, I already said yes, and we start filming really soon, but I'm worried, too. I don't usually watch reality shows, so I don't know quite what to expect. I really hope the other tenants like me…

No, they will like me! I know they will! Maybe it'll help if I bake muffins for them. I like to bake muffins. They're pretty much all I know how to cook, but they're good comfort food, and I can make them with any varieties of flavors.

The letter says I get to have a job anywhere I want in the town, so I guess I'm safe with a bookstore job. That's good. At least something will be normal and comforting. I hope I'll have enough time to draw. I have to get my second book for Yume done soon. My publisher might let up a bit if I tell her about this reality show, but still. It needs to get done! Maybe the others will be able to help me with my comic! I could base new characters off of them. Oh, I hope that wouldn’t make them mad, though. I would hate to leave a bad impression.

My head is spinning. I'm excited and nervous and happy and worried all at the same time. Oh, I hope I hope I hope they'll like me. I have just a little more time before I move into the house with the others. I better start packing, if I'll be able to get all the things I need in order. I hope I can get myself ready for this…

No, I will be ready! I'm going to have a wonderful time!

And maybe I'll find love.

:: Oliver 9:02 PM [+] ::
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